Random Thoughts that keep creeping into my mind:
Ever wondered
Why all production emergencies hit you at precisely 4-30 on a Friday afternoon ?
Why at the grocery store, the cash register gives a problem just as you are about to get billed?
Why your progress report at work is anything but ? It reflects only the stuff you did not finish and not vice verca ?
If Peyton Manning, Sachin Tendulkar, Lara, will always be the greatest who never won the bigggest ?
How much energy and resources we waste in the US while on the other side of the planet people are just happy to receive drinking water for 3 hours a day ?
Why the car/watch/shirt/anything you like is just a wee bit above your budget?
November 21, 2006
November 05, 2006
BCCI-The Board of Chaos and Confusion in India
YoYo,
I was following with some interest the sparring between Lalit Modi and ICC chief Malcolm Speed regarding the MPA and TV rights issue. Everyone likes to hail India as the center of world cricket and beleives it is the unofficial HQ of cricket. Perhaps so, but I am always wondering if that is really true. Yes, its our #1 game. Cricket games draw crowds, the players have multi-million contracts and are role models and all that. But perhaps before claiming ourselves the HQ its time to look at a few questions from the other side of the fence.
From the spectators point of view, the engine that drives the commerce behind cricket.
What does the average fan get in return ? Woeful facilities at stadiums where you loose your seat if you go for a leak. Baking in the 100 F sun or in temp shamianas, sitting on cement-concrete seats for 7 hrs post which you have lost all feeling in your bottom, Exorbitantly charged for refreshments (I can kind of understand this one.) I have now been to a few sports events. Two times at the Nasdaq-100 Open, a Miami Heat basketball game and a U of M college football game with 60000 wild college fans as the audience. What strikes me is how smooth things work. You can actually get to sit relax and enjoy the game. And this wasnt even the premium tickets. In fact the cheapest ones. When I watched the India-NZ game way back in 96, it was worse than a stampede. I cant imagine anyone in the right frame of mind wanting to bring his family over for a day of cricket at the Nehru Stadium.
What peeves me most is the utter discontempt shown for audience confort. Basically they are treated as shit. There is no concern for the well being. It is just assumed that they will show up and put up irrespective of what is dished out. And such is the passion that we actualy do!
Another thing that drives me nuts is the merchandising. I guess this is deviating a little bit but I had a hard time buying a India jersey a few years ago. I finally found one in Colaba on the street stalls for 250 bucks. I recently had my buddy ship one to me-the original one for 1800 bucks. (My mom things I have way too much money on me). Here it is so easily accessible. These guys have found a way to market their game in such a way that the fam feels a part of the team.Jerseys,hats,apparel,pens,keychains every damn thing you can think of. Whay hasn't anyone thought of doing this for our team ? Imagine what sort of response and revenue it would generate. And perhaps then the BCCI would invest some of it in Upgrading stadiums and allow the fans to have some fun.
September 30, 2006
Losing it.....
YoYo,
Wow, seems like I forgot about blogging at all. Been so long since I last wrote. I think I am incredibly stupid. I should be concentrating on things I enjoy like writing and not bother about the rest. Like waste time on Orkut for example.
Life is going full speed and my brain seems to be struggling to keep up. I think I am suffering from some sort of mental degeneration :-). I think I am in some sort of a haze these days, wherein I am viewing the worldly things from outside. You know kind of in my own cocoon. Only two things are top priority:surviving the day at work and hitting the gym. My brain seems unable to multitask. Here is a list of stupid things I did in the last few months: Forgot to put my car in gear while filling gas causing my car to roll; filled up the more expensive premium gas. I didnt even look, went to the left-most pump on the station. Turns out that has the more expensive type was on the left at the Shell Station. The whole of US is celebrating low prices and I somehow managed to do the opposite. I haven't even counted the no of times I've put my car in reverse instead of first and vice verca. I regularly manage to loose my cell phone at home. Here is a brief list of places I've accidentally left my cell phone at: Shoe Rack,Top of microwave, between sofa cushions, and the last is a good one-my laundary tub !! On top of that every India call eventually turns into the dreaded lagna topic. Just dont feel ready for all that yet. Just cant imaging taking on responsibility for one more person when I cant handle myself !! Now if she is way smarter than I am, then I am in business. I will sit and home all day, watch sports on a plasma screen and drink beer.Hell I will even cut the onions and do the dishes ! Amen ...
Wow, seems like I forgot about blogging at all. Been so long since I last wrote. I think I am incredibly stupid. I should be concentrating on things I enjoy like writing and not bother about the rest. Like waste time on Orkut for example.
Life is going full speed and my brain seems to be struggling to keep up. I think I am suffering from some sort of mental degeneration :-). I think I am in some sort of a haze these days, wherein I am viewing the worldly things from outside. You know kind of in my own cocoon. Only two things are top priority:surviving the day at work and hitting the gym. My brain seems unable to multitask. Here is a list of stupid things I did in the last few months: Forgot to put my car in gear while filling gas causing my car to roll; filled up the more expensive premium gas. I didnt even look, went to the left-most pump on the station. Turns out that has the more expensive type was on the left at the Shell Station. The whole of US is celebrating low prices and I somehow managed to do the opposite. I haven't even counted the no of times I've put my car in reverse instead of first and vice verca. I regularly manage to loose my cell phone at home. Here is a brief list of places I've accidentally left my cell phone at: Shoe Rack,Top of microwave, between sofa cushions, and the last is a good one-my laundary tub !! On top of that every India call eventually turns into the dreaded lagna topic. Just dont feel ready for all that yet. Just cant imaging taking on responsibility for one more person when I cant handle myself !! Now if she is way smarter than I am, then I am in business. I will sit and home all day, watch sports on a plasma screen and drink beer.Hell I will even cut the onions and do the dishes ! Amen ...
July 25, 2006
When Style meets substance.....
YoYo,
..Incredible things happen.None personifies this more than Rahul "The Wall" Dravid. As he led India to a victory outside the subcontinent for the first time since '86, within the hustle and bustle of NBA finals and FIFA 2006, one achievement went quietly unnoticed. Rahul Dravid became the fastest player to reach 9000 test runs. Only the Aussie and Indian duo and Lara lie above him. Amongst active players he is 3rd behind Lara and Sachin.
"The Wall" now sounds like an really ridiculous nickname,almost a cruel joke. Back in the late 90's, his spectacular debut at Lords notwithstanding, he was seen as a player capable of breaking down bowlers with his peerless defense, but not more. His strokeplay was admired but no one gave him a chance of being a dominant batsmen,leave alone find a place in the shorter version of the game. Fast forward to 2006 and a different picture appears.
Dravid is a blend of orthodox style and modern mentality.While he preserves his classical batting style he has seamlessly integrated it with the demands of the present day game. Mentally, he stands second to none. But perhaps his greatest virtue is his constant learning which allows him to see his drawbacks and improve on them at all times. A good example is his ability to play the ball with a feather touch and scamper for a single, whereas previously he would crunch a hard drive straight to the fielder.He has found a ally in Greg Chappel. With a beleif in the philosphy that processes will lead to results, he has gradually started leaving his own imprint on the team.
In many ways, he is my idol and a man I would like to emulate. His onfield achievents, (compare him with some of NBA's and NFL's bloated ego's and you will understand), his articulate and thoughtful manner of speaking, combined with his ability to handle pressure gracefully make him very much an Indian Idol.
..Incredible things happen.None personifies this more than Rahul "The Wall" Dravid. As he led India to a victory outside the subcontinent for the first time since '86, within the hustle and bustle of NBA finals and FIFA 2006, one achievement went quietly unnoticed. Rahul Dravid became the fastest player to reach 9000 test runs. Only the Aussie and Indian duo and Lara lie above him. Amongst active players he is 3rd behind Lara and Sachin.
"The Wall" now sounds like an really ridiculous nickname,almost a cruel joke. Back in the late 90's, his spectacular debut at Lords notwithstanding, he was seen as a player capable of breaking down bowlers with his peerless defense, but not more. His strokeplay was admired but no one gave him a chance of being a dominant batsmen,leave alone find a place in the shorter version of the game. Fast forward to 2006 and a different picture appears.
Dravid is a blend of orthodox style and modern mentality.While he preserves his classical batting style he has seamlessly integrated it with the demands of the present day game. Mentally, he stands second to none. But perhaps his greatest virtue is his constant learning which allows him to see his drawbacks and improve on them at all times. A good example is his ability to play the ball with a feather touch and scamper for a single, whereas previously he would crunch a hard drive straight to the fielder.He has found a ally in Greg Chappel. With a beleif in the philosphy that processes will lead to results, he has gradually started leaving his own imprint on the team.
In many ways, he is my idol and a man I would like to emulate. His onfield achievents, (compare him with some of NBA's and NFL's bloated ego's and you will understand), his articulate and thoughtful manner of speaking, combined with his ability to handle pressure gracefully make him very much an Indian Idol.
July 15, 2006
Life on the Shop Floor
YoYo,
Its been a month and a little more in my new role as a Manufacturing Engineer at a Medical Device Company. It has been so dynamic and so exciting so far that I have been left breathless by the pace of it all.
Life on the shop floor is so much different than what I had ever imagined. School certainly does not prepare you for it. While most assembly line operations in a big industry (e.g automobile) are automated, in a medical device firm that is often not the case. Which means that the quality of the product (and the bottom line) is literally dependent in the operators hands. This is a scary proposition. Consider if one of them has had a bad day and accidentally bends a wire. That's a scrap right there. Imagine this hapenning with one of them every single day. Profits can take such a big hit.
More than anything else it's about dealing with personalities. My floor has ~ 30 operators per shift, most of them females, age group ranging from 30 -55 ish coming from mostly South and Central American countries. Learning to communicate with them is an experience in itself and soon I think I will be forced to learn Spanish.
Some of them look as if they are born to work on the floor. Skilled hands,sharp eyes and quick grasping. Other's look like this is the last place they want to be with bored expressions written on their faces. Integrating this group into one solid team is a task to get the required numbers and yields, getting them to proactively follow and understand procedures-now that is some task.
Scraps and yields, throughputs and earned hours, efficiencies and tact times,ovens and coaters,spare parts and technicians ,operators and engineers engineering and man management-That is my life !!
Its been a month and a little more in my new role as a Manufacturing Engineer at a Medical Device Company. It has been so dynamic and so exciting so far that I have been left breathless by the pace of it all.
Life on the shop floor is so much different than what I had ever imagined. School certainly does not prepare you for it. While most assembly line operations in a big industry (e.g automobile) are automated, in a medical device firm that is often not the case. Which means that the quality of the product (and the bottom line) is literally dependent in the operators hands. This is a scary proposition. Consider if one of them has had a bad day and accidentally bends a wire. That's a scrap right there. Imagine this hapenning with one of them every single day. Profits can take such a big hit.
More than anything else it's about dealing with personalities. My floor has ~ 30 operators per shift, most of them females, age group ranging from 30 -55 ish coming from mostly South and Central American countries. Learning to communicate with them is an experience in itself and soon I think I will be forced to learn Spanish.
Some of them look as if they are born to work on the floor. Skilled hands,sharp eyes and quick grasping. Other's look like this is the last place they want to be with bored expressions written on their faces. Integrating this group into one solid team is a task to get the required numbers and yields, getting them to proactively follow and understand procedures-now that is some task.
Scraps and yields, throughputs and earned hours, efficiencies and tact times,ovens and coaters,spare parts and technicians ,operators and engineers engineering and man management-That is my life !!
June 20, 2006
Hurray ! Voted the rudest !!
YoYo,
While lazing around in the office this afternoon I read about aamchi Mumbai being voted as the rudest city in the world. Reader Digest, a publication for which I have the utmost respect and which I have been avidly reading since childhood was the one who did the survey.What RD did was to have their representatives drop pieces of paper on the road and see if someone would pick it up and hand it over. They also noted who openened doors and which shopkeeper said Thank-You to customers. Based on this they rated the city as being rudest in the world.
My first reaction on reading this was "So what ?" Seriously, what is the point of the exercise ? I mean it's not going to stop a curious tourist from visiting or an entrepreneur from investing. As for the Mumbaikar he does not care two hoots !
I have friends and relatives from the city and have visited the city innumerable times. I can relate to the Mumbaikars attitude. Mumbai is one of the world largest metropolis. Starting from the hawker on Chowpatty to Ambani in his plush sea front office , everyone is busy. Everyone is there for a purpose, with a motive in mind. There is no time to waste. Catching trains, filling water in buckets early morning, dealing with incessant rains and poor infrastructure,cooking food for the family, taking care of old aji-ajoba in the house and making ends meet. The average Mumbaikar is simply overwhelmed just living his daily life.He knows life only one way. And that is the scrap dog mentality. Fight for everything. Keep an eye out for the empty seat on the crowded bus and the other on the mawali who has been staring at you since the longest time. Between all this where is the time to pick up papers and open restaurant doors ? I am sure people in other plush European countries dont have to deal with this shit. I have been in situations where I have been w/o electricity for a few hours and next day that becomes the topic of discussion in office.Do they ever have to worry @ potholed roads and about having enough supply of water to last the day? These things are like breathing for others. For Mumbai its a luxury. I beleive the Mumbaikars behavior is a direct result of his surroundings. He does not mean to be rude. He simply does not know of another way.
I also feel very strongly that genuine manners and being nice is one thing and "being nice" on the surface is another. In the western world due to a lack of good social interaction or lack of family values ( as compared to the tightly knit family structure in Asian communities ) people often want to be friendly or at least act friendly with whoever and whomever they see. Its basic human nature to be wanted and to be social. I find it ironic that you open doors to restaurants for people you dont know but close the doors of your house for your old man who is struggling to make ends meet by flipping burgers.
Mumbai is an world unto itself and that is precisely why such a generalisation wont do. For me it's a snapshot of India itself and if this implies that India is the rudest country in the world I wouldnt have a problem with it either ! I would ratherbe genuinely nice to my people rather than artificially mouth meaningless Thank you's and welcomes to every Tom, Dick and Harry I see on my Blvd. It makes you feel nice on the surface but that's where it ends. And perhaps the RD should do a survey on Most resilient City. I have no doubt who will top that !!
While lazing around in the office this afternoon I read about aamchi Mumbai being voted as the rudest city in the world. Reader Digest, a publication for which I have the utmost respect and which I have been avidly reading since childhood was the one who did the survey.What RD did was to have their representatives drop pieces of paper on the road and see if someone would pick it up and hand it over. They also noted who openened doors and which shopkeeper said Thank-You to customers. Based on this they rated the city as being rudest in the world.
My first reaction on reading this was "So what ?" Seriously, what is the point of the exercise ? I mean it's not going to stop a curious tourist from visiting or an entrepreneur from investing. As for the Mumbaikar he does not care two hoots !
I have friends and relatives from the city and have visited the city innumerable times. I can relate to the Mumbaikars attitude. Mumbai is one of the world largest metropolis. Starting from the hawker on Chowpatty to Ambani in his plush sea front office , everyone is busy. Everyone is there for a purpose, with a motive in mind. There is no time to waste. Catching trains, filling water in buckets early morning, dealing with incessant rains and poor infrastructure,cooking food for the family, taking care of old aji-ajoba in the house and making ends meet. The average Mumbaikar is simply overwhelmed just living his daily life.He knows life only one way. And that is the scrap dog mentality. Fight for everything. Keep an eye out for the empty seat on the crowded bus and the other on the mawali who has been staring at you since the longest time. Between all this where is the time to pick up papers and open restaurant doors ? I am sure people in other plush European countries dont have to deal with this shit. I have been in situations where I have been w/o electricity for a few hours and next day that becomes the topic of discussion in office.Do they ever have to worry @ potholed roads and about having enough supply of water to last the day? These things are like breathing for others. For Mumbai its a luxury. I beleive the Mumbaikars behavior is a direct result of his surroundings. He does not mean to be rude. He simply does not know of another way.
I also feel very strongly that genuine manners and being nice is one thing and "being nice" on the surface is another. In the western world due to a lack of good social interaction or lack of family values ( as compared to the tightly knit family structure in Asian communities ) people often want to be friendly or at least act friendly with whoever and whomever they see. Its basic human nature to be wanted and to be social. I find it ironic that you open doors to restaurants for people you dont know but close the doors of your house for your old man who is struggling to make ends meet by flipping burgers.
Mumbai is an world unto itself and that is precisely why such a generalisation wont do. For me it's a snapshot of India itself and if this implies that India is the rudest country in the world I wouldnt have a problem with it either ! I would ratherbe genuinely nice to my people rather than artificially mouth meaningless Thank you's and welcomes to every Tom, Dick and Harry I see on my Blvd. It makes you feel nice on the surface but that's where it ends. And perhaps the RD should do a survey on Most resilient City. I have no doubt who will top that !!
June 09, 2006
Gymming
Yo,
Gymming is such a wonderful thing. If done right and in the correct frame of mind there's very little that beats the thrill of lifting. Its a simple test of can or cannot. You complete the rep or dont. There's no half way to it. A half is a failure. Everything stands out in Black and White. Failure and success seem to be so sharply defined. No grey area. Its you against the steel,mind against the muscle,man against the machine.Its like swimming upstream. The rush of blood,the lactic formation and feeling of being superman. For an hour or so at least...
Working out alone is the best thing thats hapenned to me. Focussing and concentration are not my strongest points but being alone in the gym in the midst of blaring rock music is a unlikely place where I find myself in the zone.
Gymming is such a wonderful thing. If done right and in the correct frame of mind there's very little that beats the thrill of lifting. Its a simple test of can or cannot. You complete the rep or dont. There's no half way to it. A half is a failure. Everything stands out in Black and White. Failure and success seem to be so sharply defined. No grey area. Its you against the steel,mind against the muscle,man against the machine.Its like swimming upstream. The rush of blood,the lactic formation and feeling of being superman. For an hour or so at least...
Working out alone is the best thing thats hapenned to me. Focussing and concentration are not my strongest points but being alone in the gym in the midst of blaring rock music is a unlikely place where I find myself in the zone.
May 13, 2006
Moving on
YoYo,
My travel schedule over the past month and the forthcoming forthnight has been absolutely crazy. First travelled to San Jose for an interview and headed back to Miami.Next morning I left for Glens Falls. On the w/e I scooted off to NYC which is a beautiful 3 hour train ride. Presently I am in Pittsburgh for the w/e. By End of next week I should be back in Miami and a week later in Colorado.
Staying away from my usual surroundings has been a blessing in disguise leaving me with plenty of room and space for thought.One that repeatedly crossed my mind was how gradually with time there seems to be an apparent loss of connection with close people and friends. I had been warned about this by my elder brother based on his own experience. I experienced this during my last India trip as well but I never thought it would also affect my relationship with my close friends. Time was when we knew each others plans to the last detail,chatted day night on phones and messengers. Gradually this reduced to calling each other on the weekends and now even that is trickling down. I think and I think I am right when I say that everyone seems to be still finding his own space. Whereas once we would have driven criss cross to meet one another, now I had a 10 minute on the road meeting.I hope this is not a long term reflection of where our relationships with each other is headed. I hope its more like a temporary bump which should smoothen out with time.
On a positive note, my close pal heads out to India and is about to experience something beautiful. He wont talk much and reveals very little but at 30 years of age, after wasting time on all activities that would repel girls, the time has very much come to give up the Hanuman tag. Best of luck Manya !!
My travel schedule over the past month and the forthcoming forthnight has been absolutely crazy. First travelled to San Jose for an interview and headed back to Miami.Next morning I left for Glens Falls. On the w/e I scooted off to NYC which is a beautiful 3 hour train ride. Presently I am in Pittsburgh for the w/e. By End of next week I should be back in Miami and a week later in Colorado.
Staying away from my usual surroundings has been a blessing in disguise leaving me with plenty of room and space for thought.One that repeatedly crossed my mind was how gradually with time there seems to be an apparent loss of connection with close people and friends. I had been warned about this by my elder brother based on his own experience. I experienced this during my last India trip as well but I never thought it would also affect my relationship with my close friends. Time was when we knew each others plans to the last detail,chatted day night on phones and messengers. Gradually this reduced to calling each other on the weekends and now even that is trickling down. I think and I think I am right when I say that everyone seems to be still finding his own space. Whereas once we would have driven criss cross to meet one another, now I had a 10 minute on the road meeting.I hope this is not a long term reflection of where our relationships with each other is headed. I hope its more like a temporary bump which should smoothen out with time.
On a positive note, my close pal heads out to India and is about to experience something beautiful. He wont talk much and reveals very little but at 30 years of age, after wasting time on all activities that would repel girls, the time has very much come to give up the Hanuman tag. Best of luck Manya !!
April 27, 2006
Random developments
YoYo,
I havent found myself in a better mood in long time. Currently I am on a project with Boston Scientific Glens Falls. Its a small town located 45 miles North of Albany,very much upstate NY. Coming from the hustle and bustle of Miami this feels like a vacation. Theres virtually no traffic,work while challenging has been pretty good so far,foods been awesome;and the per diem aint bad at all. 2 of my buddies who are complete gym maniacs have promised to get me buffed up,force feed (and drink) me to double my size. The most noticeable difference has been the fact that people here are so nice. Just genuinely nice. Again seems a different world from * nasty * big city culture that I am so used to.
Hopefully this honeymoon phase will last thro for a month by which time I should be back in Miami starting as a full time engineer. A year to the day after I started,finally the offer.Before that however, I would have got myself on the top of a 14er in Colorado. I am unbeleiveable excited about the trip. Been ages since I scaled a mountain of any significance.Not only that I also will meet up Atool whom I last saw half a decade ago ! Good chance to catch up on old times and recharge the batteries !
I havent found myself in a better mood in long time. Currently I am on a project with Boston Scientific Glens Falls. Its a small town located 45 miles North of Albany,very much upstate NY. Coming from the hustle and bustle of Miami this feels like a vacation. Theres virtually no traffic,work while challenging has been pretty good so far,foods been awesome;and the per diem aint bad at all. 2 of my buddies who are complete gym maniacs have promised to get me buffed up,force feed (and drink) me to double my size. The most noticeable difference has been the fact that people here are so nice. Just genuinely nice. Again seems a different world from * nasty * big city culture that I am so used to.
Hopefully this honeymoon phase will last thro for a month by which time I should be back in Miami starting as a full time engineer. A year to the day after I started,finally the offer.Before that however, I would have got myself on the top of a 14er in Colorado. I am unbeleiveable excited about the trip. Been ages since I scaled a mountain of any significance.Not only that I also will meet up Atool whom I last saw half a decade ago ! Good chance to catch up on old times and recharge the batteries !
April 12, 2006
Aaj ki taaza khabar
Yo,
Just hapenned to read in the news that Salman Khan got a jail term in the Black Buck Case. Another piece of news caught my eye,Juctice Maheshwari took all but 9 working days to declare the son of a DGP level officer in Orissa, guilty of raping a German woman.Not only did the speed of decision surprise me, the very fact that two connected people got caught and convicted in the web of the law surprised me even more. India's judicial system is tedious.While I am not educated enough to comment on its fairness, it is common knowledge that if you tweak the right chords, you can get away with even murder (pun intended). The Jesicca Lal case is a prime example.The law takes its own course but in India sometimes it takes the wrong exit routes.Witnesses withdrawing testimony, allegations of testimony forced under pressure,being paid off and similar issues are so commonplace that its not even funny.
Ocasionally however a judgement comes from the courts that seems to set the right examples.There really is no excuse for breaking the law,least of all things like running your SUV over footpath of sleeping people,killing deer and protected wildlife.The common man fears the law because he knows that when he does a wrong he will be punished. The fear of law is very important in maintaining a disciplined community and ensures a just society.If the middle class commoner sees celebrities or for that matter get away with anything and everything, he is likely to loose hope. He is likely to start feeling that going the right way will do him no good and joins the law breaking cult in whatever way he can. Analogy:Jump a light,pay a cop 50 bucks, ride on. The essense remains the same. You have broken the rules,tried to wriggle our way out of trouble and did so successfully. Perfect breeding ground for future miscreant activities.
The fact that Salman is a celebrity has gone against him for sure, but how does that even come in the picture. I am of the opinion that being a celebrity is even more reason for him or for any other for that matter to be aware at all times.If people worship them and they seem to enjoy that then they better act like gods.
Just hapenned to read in the news that Salman Khan got a jail term in the Black Buck Case. Another piece of news caught my eye,Juctice Maheshwari took all but 9 working days to declare the son of a DGP level officer in Orissa, guilty of raping a German woman.Not only did the speed of decision surprise me, the very fact that two connected people got caught and convicted in the web of the law surprised me even more. India's judicial system is tedious.While I am not educated enough to comment on its fairness, it is common knowledge that if you tweak the right chords, you can get away with even murder (pun intended). The Jesicca Lal case is a prime example.The law takes its own course but in India sometimes it takes the wrong exit routes.Witnesses withdrawing testimony, allegations of testimony forced under pressure,being paid off and similar issues are so commonplace that its not even funny.
Ocasionally however a judgement comes from the courts that seems to set the right examples.There really is no excuse for breaking the law,least of all things like running your SUV over footpath of sleeping people,killing deer and protected wildlife.The common man fears the law because he knows that when he does a wrong he will be punished. The fear of law is very important in maintaining a disciplined community and ensures a just society.If the middle class commoner sees celebrities or for that matter get away with anything and everything, he is likely to loose hope. He is likely to start feeling that going the right way will do him no good and joins the law breaking cult in whatever way he can. Analogy:Jump a light,pay a cop 50 bucks, ride on. The essense remains the same. You have broken the rules,tried to wriggle our way out of trouble and did so successfully. Perfect breeding ground for future miscreant activities.
The fact that Salman is a celebrity has gone against him for sure, but how does that even come in the picture. I am of the opinion that being a celebrity is even more reason for him or for any other for that matter to be aware at all times.If people worship them and they seem to enjoy that then they better act like gods.
April 03, 2006
Memorable movie characters...
Every once in a while one watches a movie that leaves an impression that lasts beyond the couple of hours spent in the theater. More than the movie itself, it is the that characters stay with you for long and sometimes for life. Here are my favorite characters from Hollywood movies
1. Coach Boone in Remember The Titans : By far the most inspiring movie I have seen. Each time I watch it, I get an andrelaine rush and a feeling that I can achieve something in life. Denzel Washington's brilliant potrayal of a Virginia high school team football coach, who resurrects not only the fortunes of his school football team but by doing so brings the racially split community as one, was at once moving and motivating.No wonder Team Indias coach showed the same movie to his boys before the WC 2003. Outwardly harsh, outspoken and rude, Boone in reality is only trying to toughen his boys. His path is met with full resistance initially from the Hall of Famer Coach he is replacing, from the community and from the white players as well. However eventually Boone wins them all and guides them all the way.Super effort from Denzel,brilliant script and outstanding dialog
Memorable quotes :
1. Adressing the team on first day "This is no democracy. This is dictatorship and I, am the law."
Memorable Scene : 1) Football practice is over for the day. The Offense and the Defense make a huddle and chant "Left Side, Strong Side". Finally, Coach Boone has got his squad as one.
2) The Standing Ovation to Gerry Bertier's Mom even as Gerry lies injured in his hospital bed.
3) The early morning 3.30 am practice jog to the land where their" forefathers died fighting for the nation"
2. Col. Nathan R Jessop in A Few Good Men : No movie character has impressed me more and am yet to see a person so dominating in real or reel life. When I watched the movie for the first time I was stunned by the sher force of Jessop's dialog delivery. Unshakeable in his convictions about the manner of executing his duties, Jessop beleives that ends are more important than the means used to achieve it. Entrusted with the duty of defending his nation Jessop will go any lengths and use any means to do it.When someone attemps to get to the bottom of whats happening in his "Shangri-La" he doesnt take it too well. (This blog owes its name to this movie) Subjected to a court trial about a misconduct in his unit, Jessop looses his calm under intense questioning proving what was feared all along.
From the first line where he is seen questioning the integrity of PFC Santiago to his last wherein he threatens laywer Kaffe that he would "rip your heart and piss in your dead skull"Jessop plays his role with an intensity and passion that would can arise only from a man who has absolute control and confidence over what he is doing. I would love to have that level of confidence in me.
Fittingly, the end of the movie poses more questions than it answers. Who are the Few Good Men ? Is it Kaffe and Galloway for uncovering the truth ? Is it the pair of Dawson and Downey who were only following their orders ? or is it Col. Nathan R Jessop, Commanding Officer,United States Marines, Guantanamo Bay Cuba ?
Memorable Quote :
1. During the court room " You need me on that Wall. You want me on that wall"
2. You have to ask me nicely. You see son I can deal with the blood bombs and teh bullets, I dont want money and I dont want medals.What I do want is for you to stand there in that faggoty white unform of yours and with your Harward mouth extend me some F***ing courtesy. You have to ask me nicely.
3. I eat breakfast 300 yards from 400 Cubans trained to kill me.
1. The breakfast scene at Guantanamo where he humiliates and lets the lawyers know exactly what he thinks of them without so much as shifting from his seat, with a cigar dangling in his mouth full time.
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3.Maximus Decimius Meridias in Gladiator
Russel Crowe plays Maximus in this Ridley Scott directed movie set in Rome.The movie is visually stunning and depicts ancient Rome 180 AD in engrossing detail.Maximus,set to be appointed as the General of Rome,instead finds himslef sold into slavery as a Gladiator.He reutns to take his reveng. Maximus's chilling cold gaze,cool head under the threat of certain death and his thrist for revenge are what stay with the viewer.
Memorable Quote :
1. "What we do in life echoes in eternity"
2. "..............Father to a murdered son, Husband to a murdered wife, and I will have my vengenance, in this life or the next"
3."On my command,unleash hell"
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4. Forrest Gump in and as Forrest Gump: This Oscar winning moving performance established Tom Hanks as once of the finest actors of his generation. Forrest's strong point as well as his drawback is his simplistic view of life. Whereas everyone sees life and see things in shades of gray,Forrest sees in a Black and White. He follows orders qithout questioning why and how. He doesn't think too much and keeps his life simple and uncomplicated. It is an attribute that only an young innocent child can have. As one grows and experiences the big bad world life becomes more mean and devious plotting and thinking about the underlysing meaning or message or implications of everything that is being said or done.
Memorable Quote
1. "My mama always said, Life is like a box of chocolates Forrest. You never know what you are gonna get"
Memorable Scene
1. The one where he discovers that his child is 'perfect' and sits down to watch TV with him
5. Black Mamba in Kill Bill: Not many will agree here but what the hell. In the hands of a lesser director Kill Bill would have been just another action flick. But Quentin Tarantino sets up this revenge saga in style, led by the stylish Uma Thurman in the lead role . The action in the film is as unconventional (the use of Japanese anime) as it is mind blowing.The story move at a nice pace throughout from Texas to Japan .Thurman is brilliant in all the action scenes and looks stunning. I might be a little gruding in granting this spot but my first reaction after watching part One was "Whens 2 coming ?"
Memorable Scenes
1. Sword fight against the snow background against O Ren Ishii. Its visually stunning and gory yet beautiful at the same time
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Honorable Mentions :
1. Lt. Daniel Kaffe by Tom Cruise in A Few Good Men
2. Tony Montana by Al Pacino in Scarface
3. Captain Jack Sparrow by Johnny Depp in The Pirates of the Carribean
4.Donnie Brascoby Johnny Depp in Donnie Brasco
5. Blondie, by Clint Eastwood in The Good,The Bad and The Ugly
1. Coach Boone in Remember The Titans : By far the most inspiring movie I have seen. Each time I watch it, I get an andrelaine rush and a feeling that I can achieve something in life. Denzel Washington's brilliant potrayal of a Virginia high school team football coach, who resurrects not only the fortunes of his school football team but by doing so brings the racially split community as one, was at once moving and motivating.No wonder Team Indias coach showed the same movie to his boys before the WC 2003. Outwardly harsh, outspoken and rude, Boone in reality is only trying to toughen his boys. His path is met with full resistance initially from the Hall of Famer Coach he is replacing, from the community and from the white players as well. However eventually Boone wins them all and guides them all the way.Super effort from Denzel,brilliant script and outstanding dialog
Memorable quotes :
1. Adressing the team on first day "This is no democracy. This is dictatorship and I, am the law."
Memorable Scene : 1) Football practice is over for the day. The Offense and the Defense make a huddle and chant "Left Side, Strong Side". Finally, Coach Boone has got his squad as one.
2) The Standing Ovation to Gerry Bertier's Mom even as Gerry lies injured in his hospital bed.
3) The early morning 3.30 am practice jog to the land where their" forefathers died fighting for the nation"
2. Col. Nathan R Jessop in A Few Good Men : No movie character has impressed me more and am yet to see a person so dominating in real or reel life. When I watched the movie for the first time I was stunned by the sher force of Jessop's dialog delivery. Unshakeable in his convictions about the manner of executing his duties, Jessop beleives that ends are more important than the means used to achieve it. Entrusted with the duty of defending his nation Jessop will go any lengths and use any means to do it.When someone attemps to get to the bottom of whats happening in his "Shangri-La" he doesnt take it too well. (This blog owes its name to this movie) Subjected to a court trial about a misconduct in his unit, Jessop looses his calm under intense questioning proving what was feared all along.
From the first line where he is seen questioning the integrity of PFC Santiago to his last wherein he threatens laywer Kaffe that he would "rip your heart and piss in your dead skull"Jessop plays his role with an intensity and passion that would can arise only from a man who has absolute control and confidence over what he is doing. I would love to have that level of confidence in me.
Fittingly, the end of the movie poses more questions than it answers. Who are the Few Good Men ? Is it Kaffe and Galloway for uncovering the truth ? Is it the pair of Dawson and Downey who were only following their orders ? or is it Col. Nathan R Jessop, Commanding Officer,United States Marines, Guantanamo Bay Cuba ?
Memorable Quote :
1. During the court room " You need me on that Wall. You want me on that wall"
2. You have to ask me nicely. You see son I can deal with the blood bombs and teh bullets, I dont want money and I dont want medals.What I do want is for you to stand there in that faggoty white unform of yours and with your Harward mouth extend me some F***ing courtesy. You have to ask me nicely.
3. I eat breakfast 300 yards from 400 Cubans trained to kill me.
1. The breakfast scene at Guantanamo where he humiliates and lets the lawyers know exactly what he thinks of them without so much as shifting from his seat, with a cigar dangling in his mouth full time.
==
3.Maximus Decimius Meridias in Gladiator
Russel Crowe plays Maximus in this Ridley Scott directed movie set in Rome.The movie is visually stunning and depicts ancient Rome 180 AD in engrossing detail.Maximus,set to be appointed as the General of Rome,instead finds himslef sold into slavery as a Gladiator.He reutns to take his reveng. Maximus's chilling cold gaze,cool head under the threat of certain death and his thrist for revenge are what stay with the viewer.
Memorable Quote :
1. "What we do in life echoes in eternity"
2. "..............Father to a murdered son, Husband to a murdered wife, and I will have my vengenance, in this life or the next"
3."On my command,unleash hell"
=================================================================
4. Forrest Gump in and as Forrest Gump: This Oscar winning moving performance established Tom Hanks as once of the finest actors of his generation. Forrest's strong point as well as his drawback is his simplistic view of life. Whereas everyone sees life and see things in shades of gray,Forrest sees in a Black and White. He follows orders qithout questioning why and how. He doesn't think too much and keeps his life simple and uncomplicated. It is an attribute that only an young innocent child can have. As one grows and experiences the big bad world life becomes more mean and devious plotting and thinking about the underlysing meaning or message or implications of everything that is being said or done.
Memorable Quote
1. "My mama always said, Life is like a box of chocolates Forrest. You never know what you are gonna get"
Memorable Scene
1. The one where he discovers that his child is 'perfect' and sits down to watch TV with him
5. Black Mamba in Kill Bill: Not many will agree here but what the hell. In the hands of a lesser director Kill Bill would have been just another action flick. But Quentin Tarantino sets up this revenge saga in style, led by the stylish Uma Thurman in the lead role . The action in the film is as unconventional (the use of Japanese anime) as it is mind blowing.The story move at a nice pace throughout from Texas to Japan .Thurman is brilliant in all the action scenes and looks stunning. I might be a little gruding in granting this spot but my first reaction after watching part One was "Whens 2 coming ?"
Memorable Scenes
1. Sword fight against the snow background against O Ren Ishii. Its visually stunning and gory yet beautiful at the same time
===========================================================
Honorable Mentions :
1. Lt. Daniel Kaffe by Tom Cruise in A Few Good Men
2. Tony Montana by Al Pacino in Scarface
3. Captain Jack Sparrow by Johnny Depp in The Pirates of the Carribean
4.Donnie Brascoby Johnny Depp in Donnie Brasco
5. Blondie, by Clint Eastwood in The Good,The Bad and The Ugly
February 25, 2006
My life as I know it
6-00 am: "1 2 3..."First jazz alarm sounds, time to wake up !
6-05 am (Second alarm sounds): Decide I will go late to work today, pls, just today go late I urge myself,convincee myself
6-10 am: morality/reality check, cant get late to work, what will everyone think, That I am a slacker? Worst how will I cope with a shitload of work to be done ?Haul my lazy ass out of my sleeping bag and drag myself to the bathroom
6-45: Post dabba, "chimni: anghol and quick prayer, thank god for everything and ask him for mental support.
6-45:Decide what to wear ! I am utterly hopeless at this,Aboslutely hopeless.Somehow I manage to find a decent shirt/trouser combo that will not raise suspcions that "does this guy ever iron his shirts".Or at least keep them to a minimum
7-00 am: 1st coffee of the day ! This is heaven !! true heaven !! Mood has elevated a few notches.
7-05 am : I say to bhosu "chayla aaj aplyala late zala". Every day one of us says this to the other.Every day w/o fail. SO technically it means we are never late.Get out of the house and stare into blank space on the short drive to the bus stop.Ocasionally Bhosu jolts me out of my sleep thro his crazy driving. (From my pt of view, never from his.)
7-45:Bus arrives on time, which is a miracle,& takes me to BSCI.In the meanwhile I've read thro somemore of a book like "India Unbound". This is inspirational stuff.I promise myself every single day that one fine day I will be back home in swades with a Biomedical Dev or consultancy company of my own.
7-50: Second reality check, there's work to be done !! Dream later, work now,But before that check emails,browe Cricinfo; If India wins (2nd ME) if looses (1st Mood depression ) Chk my Outlook Calendar, Answer last night emails.Set the tone for the days
8-30 to 8-45: By this time, I am hungry, Breakfast time, 2nd coffee of the day, 3rd ME
8-45 to 10-30:Work.Interspersed with criticism of the way certain docs have been written by some engineers,ocassional praise for MS Excel, and argurments will colleauges over whether optimise should be spelled with a s or a z. They say z, I stand by s. I tell them BRITISH ENG ROCKS and AMRU ENG SUCKS ! Of course I dont mean it, but what the hell. A lil arguement is goof for everyone.
10-30:3rd Coffee, no ME this time, beacuse I am working and sort of tense/involved/thinking on how to get work done faster/quicker
12-00: Lunch. Home food = 4th ME, Cafeteria Food = 2nd MD. This is the most challenging part of the day. If the menu says pork chops, beef picadillo and green veggies, what am I supposed to eat. I mix and match, conjuring up something taht I can force down my food pipes.
12-35:KesharRatna supari. This is again heaven and either plays the role of topping off an excellent lunch (which is usually rare) or compensating for a really crappy one (which is more frequent)
Upto 4-00 pm: Work ! Attend meeting with techs, engrs, engg managers and since last couple of weeks with the Prj Managers. The later part is good stuff. I know if I talk well and make good sense while communicating it will be a confidence booster. Write progress reports, updates, keep my boss posted about imp matters and in general go about my work with sincerity and initiative. Sometimes I admit I slack off, since I am wondering what I want really want to do in life.But mostly I am honestly going about my job. After all there are matters to resolve, documents to update and Change Requests to rework.
4-00: 4th Coffee of the day, look fwd to going home !
5-00: Out of BSCI
5-05: Bus on time !! Fat chance, No way the 87# will come on time 2 times in the same day. I am pissed,positively pissed.I see chicks driving past in convertibles, executives in their Lexuses, and army folks in their Jeeps. I make myself another promise, to get a car and make this bus thing a thing of the past. If thers one single factor that contributed to increasing my tolerance levels in general credit goes to the Miami-Dade Public Transport.
7-00: Get home, contemplate hitting the Gym !See the big fat Arnold book in my bedroom and inspires me. But I also see the Carmen Electra poster and this inspires me too ! altough in very different ways !
8-30:Gym is again good stuff. I am usually lifting weights. Been at it since Sep 05 and the gradual change in body structure is good enough to keep me at it. A cop named Franky helps me if I make wrong body movements and a buddy called Pablo teaches me Spanish stuff like "Lindo Culo" which means Nice Ass. I also tell him that my language has a very similar sounding word for the same anatomical description. I thank them both for helping me out and head home with muscles pumped and ego inflated after a nice workout. I now understand that the ego inflation and mood elevation is due to release of hormones released during the workout
8-45:Protein Shake, yummy !
9-00:2nd aanghol, this feels good,
9-30:Dinner, discuss days happenings with Bhosu/Joshya. Watch Heat game, sometimes Sex and the City, bore them with stories of my gymming feats like "Aaj lai gym marla, 100 Lb Sqats marle".They kinf of nod off ackowledgingly but turn their attn back to their Heinekens.
9-45: Laptop Laptop khelneka,calls to buddies
10-30: Hit the sac. This has been a fulfilling day. Look fwd to the next day.Ocasionally read the Bhagwad Gita, but usually am too tired to truly appreciate the text.
6-00 am: "1 2 3..."First jazz alarm sounds, time to wake up !...............
Thats my life as I know it !!
6-05 am (Second alarm sounds): Decide I will go late to work today, pls, just today go late I urge myself,convincee myself
6-10 am: morality/reality check, cant get late to work, what will everyone think, That I am a slacker? Worst how will I cope with a shitload of work to be done ?Haul my lazy ass out of my sleeping bag and drag myself to the bathroom
6-45: Post dabba, "chimni: anghol and quick prayer, thank god for everything and ask him for mental support.
6-45:Decide what to wear ! I am utterly hopeless at this,Aboslutely hopeless.Somehow I manage to find a decent shirt/trouser combo that will not raise suspcions that "does this guy ever iron his shirts".Or at least keep them to a minimum
7-00 am: 1st coffee of the day ! This is heaven !! true heaven !! Mood has elevated a few notches.
7-05 am : I say to bhosu "chayla aaj aplyala late zala". Every day one of us says this to the other.Every day w/o fail. SO technically it means we are never late.Get out of the house and stare into blank space on the short drive to the bus stop.Ocasionally Bhosu jolts me out of my sleep thro his crazy driving. (From my pt of view, never from his.)
7-45:Bus arrives on time, which is a miracle,& takes me to BSCI.In the meanwhile I've read thro somemore of a book like "India Unbound". This is inspirational stuff.I promise myself every single day that one fine day I will be back home in swades with a Biomedical Dev or consultancy company of my own.
7-50: Second reality check, there's work to be done !! Dream later, work now,But before that check emails,browe Cricinfo; If India wins (2nd ME) if looses (1st Mood depression ) Chk my Outlook Calendar, Answer last night emails.Set the tone for the days
8-30 to 8-45: By this time, I am hungry, Breakfast time, 2nd coffee of the day, 3rd ME
8-45 to 10-30:Work.Interspersed with criticism of the way certain docs have been written by some engineers,ocassional praise for MS Excel, and argurments will colleauges over whether optimise should be spelled with a s or a z. They say z, I stand by s. I tell them BRITISH ENG ROCKS and AMRU ENG SUCKS ! Of course I dont mean it, but what the hell. A lil arguement is goof for everyone.
10-30:3rd Coffee, no ME this time, beacuse I am working and sort of tense/involved/thinking on how to get work done faster/quicker
12-00: Lunch. Home food = 4th ME, Cafeteria Food = 2nd MD. This is the most challenging part of the day. If the menu says pork chops, beef picadillo and green veggies, what am I supposed to eat. I mix and match, conjuring up something taht I can force down my food pipes.
12-35:KesharRatna supari. This is again heaven and either plays the role of topping off an excellent lunch (which is usually rare) or compensating for a really crappy one (which is more frequent)
Upto 4-00 pm: Work ! Attend meeting with techs, engrs, engg managers and since last couple of weeks with the Prj Managers. The later part is good stuff. I know if I talk well and make good sense while communicating it will be a confidence booster. Write progress reports, updates, keep my boss posted about imp matters and in general go about my work with sincerity and initiative. Sometimes I admit I slack off, since I am wondering what I want really want to do in life.But mostly I am honestly going about my job. After all there are matters to resolve, documents to update and Change Requests to rework.
4-00: 4th Coffee of the day, look fwd to going home !
5-00: Out of BSCI
5-05: Bus on time !! Fat chance, No way the 87# will come on time 2 times in the same day. I am pissed,positively pissed.I see chicks driving past in convertibles, executives in their Lexuses, and army folks in their Jeeps. I make myself another promise, to get a car and make this bus thing a thing of the past. If thers one single factor that contributed to increasing my tolerance levels in general credit goes to the Miami-Dade Public Transport.
7-00: Get home, contemplate hitting the Gym !See the big fat Arnold book in my bedroom and inspires me. But I also see the Carmen Electra poster and this inspires me too ! altough in very different ways !
8-30:Gym is again good stuff. I am usually lifting weights. Been at it since Sep 05 and the gradual change in body structure is good enough to keep me at it. A cop named Franky helps me if I make wrong body movements and a buddy called Pablo teaches me Spanish stuff like "Lindo Culo" which means Nice Ass. I also tell him that my language has a very similar sounding word for the same anatomical description. I thank them both for helping me out and head home with muscles pumped and ego inflated after a nice workout. I now understand that the ego inflation and mood elevation is due to release of hormones released during the workout
8-45:Protein Shake, yummy !
9-00:2nd aanghol, this feels good,
9-30:Dinner, discuss days happenings with Bhosu/Joshya. Watch Heat game, sometimes Sex and the City, bore them with stories of my gymming feats like "Aaj lai gym marla, 100 Lb Sqats marle".They kinf of nod off ackowledgingly but turn their attn back to their Heinekens.
9-45: Laptop Laptop khelneka,calls to buddies
10-30: Hit the sac. This has been a fulfilling day. Look fwd to the next day.Ocasionally read the Bhagwad Gita, but usually am too tired to truly appreciate the text.
6-00 am: "1 2 3..."First jazz alarm sounds, time to wake up !...............
Thats my life as I know it !!
January 26, 2006
Last ball victory
YoYo,
Finally ! Those who are close to me and matter, know what I am talking about, those who dont have a clue, have probably been so out of touch with my situation that it really doesnt make a difference. Anyway a long-bloddy battle has come to an end, or at least a temporary truce. Its only a small temporary arrangement like a bandage is to a bleeding wound, good enough for the time being but not a permanent solution. Saves life, will do for the time being.I am not complaining.
It was a very frustrating period for me,perhaps my blogs indicate the same.But like Steve Waugh, my hero, who fought till the bitter end in hopeless situaitions, so did I. I think the resoluteness helped.How you end matters, not how you start ! Perhaps its true that its not talent but determination that is the the most important attribute. I will never know because I always envy talented people, who seem to have everything laid out for them, but not unsurprisingly they seem to lack the perseverance aspect. I think god balances everything, giving one in abundance and supplying partly the other.I think the past one year introduced me to some of my strengths and made me aware of glaring weaknesses. I made it just in the nick of time, with not much to spare. For that I am grateful.
And in the end an inspirational quote from Socrates
"Tentative efforts lead to tentative outcomes. Therefore, give yourself fully to your endeavors. Decide to construct your character through excellent actions, and determine to pay the price for a worthy goal. The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strenghts. Remain steadfast... and one day you will build something that endures, something worthy of your potential"
Amen !
Finally ! Those who are close to me and matter, know what I am talking about, those who dont have a clue, have probably been so out of touch with my situation that it really doesnt make a difference. Anyway a long-bloddy battle has come to an end, or at least a temporary truce. Its only a small temporary arrangement like a bandage is to a bleeding wound, good enough for the time being but not a permanent solution. Saves life, will do for the time being.I am not complaining.
It was a very frustrating period for me,perhaps my blogs indicate the same.But like Steve Waugh, my hero, who fought till the bitter end in hopeless situaitions, so did I. I think the resoluteness helped.How you end matters, not how you start ! Perhaps its true that its not talent but determination that is the the most important attribute. I will never know because I always envy talented people, who seem to have everything laid out for them, but not unsurprisingly they seem to lack the perseverance aspect. I think god balances everything, giving one in abundance and supplying partly the other.I think the past one year introduced me to some of my strengths and made me aware of glaring weaknesses. I made it just in the nick of time, with not much to spare. For that I am grateful.
And in the end an inspirational quote from Socrates
"Tentative efforts lead to tentative outcomes. Therefore, give yourself fully to your endeavors. Decide to construct your character through excellent actions, and determine to pay the price for a worthy goal. The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strenghts. Remain steadfast... and one day you will build something that endures, something worthy of your potential"
Amen !
January 09, 2006
Have you ever felt that ...?
YoYo,
....When you try to do things the right way you end up consuming enourmous amounts of resources with respect to time money and energy with no gurantee of a favorable result. On the contrary, you see/hear about folks, all around you, who seem to have taken an apparent short-cut to the same end and things have worked for them. Somehow you cant quite take the plunge like they did.
....The more you go after something, the more distant it appears to be.Just keeps slipping away and away and seems like a mirage in the Sahara.
....Intense Desperation ? Desperation to get life moving and lead the life you thought you would just around a year ago ? The desperation and the hope of things working to a plan ?
....Sometimes what you go after may not even be the best thing for you ? You have just shut off other options or maybe have become blind to them
....Grateful feeling for having good pals who keep hearing encouraging you with statements to the effect "Whatever Happens happens for the good" when in reality, you and they both know that the game is almost up!!
....The more you go after something, the more distant it appears to be.Just keeps slipping away and away and seems like a mirage in the Sahara.
....Intense Desperation ? Desperation to get life moving and lead the life you thought you would just around a year ago ? The desperation and the hope of things working to a plan ?
....Sometimes what you go after may not even be the best thing for you ? You have just shut off other options or maybe have become blind to them
....Grateful feeling for having good pals who keep hearing encouraging you with statements to the effect "Whatever Happens happens for the good" when in reality, you and they both know that the game is almost up!!
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