November 24, 2005

Thanks to ......

YoYo,
This is ThanksGiving,another major festival on the calendar.Means not much to me,but in the spirit of being in the States, it again means a fair bit.In the fitness of things,this blog will not be about my usual crib-complain-cry stuff.Rather I was thinking about who are the people and what are the things I should be thankful for.I think when I am alone, I tend to better organize my thoughts and my thinking process is much clearer,and hence this is a good time to make these judgements.
My first thought went of course to my family and the strong support cast that surrounds me.When I travel in the Miami-Dade bus every single day to work and see the people around me whose career means working at McDonalds and gas stations,I am thankful for my parents for having educated me and empowered me with a chance to lead a better life. When I see kids in my apt complex *trying out stuff* I am again thankful to my family for keeping me on the right track. I also think I have some good friends with whom I can take certain luxuries and not feel guilty about it one bit. Eg: One weekend I went to a friends place, (kind of unannounced),finished off partially his Chinese-Tofu rice,went to sleep peacefully without having to worry if he had enough to fill himself. Such people are far and in between and I think I am incredibly lucky to have them. Then there are others from school days and VIT days who keep encouraging and pushing me for better things !
Even considering my present status (or should I say lack of it, pun intended) I think I have a fair bit going for me.I have had a chance to work in a top notch medical device company and with a little luck I will get the position I want so desperately and add a few $ to my bank account which again by gods grace looks much better than it ever did.I know how bad it is when you are in debt,some of my closest friends have been throught that nightmare.At work,things are always fun and my boss also thinks fairly well about me.On the personal front,reading has picked up again.I just finished "Surely you are joking,Mr.Feynman" an extremely entertaining book.Gym also is going well and though I cant put on the pounds and though I keep guzzling beer I am in much better shape than I ever was. So I think admist all the chaos and confusion that has been my shadow since the last eight months theres a lot I must look forward to and be thankful for.
So there you are !

November 01, 2005

Indian born confused desi ??

YoYo
Today is Lakshmi poojan. Its the most important day of the most important festival of the Hindu Calendar. I had known in advance, yet did nothing. No pooja, not even an attempt. Worryingly this is the second year in a row that this has hapenned. Same was the case with Dassera.One of my worst fears is about to come true. Am I beginning to lose the importance of these things ? Will with every passing year, things become progressively worse? If I stay in this country for any more length of time, would all these things might start meaning nothing but another date in the calendar for me?? Last year at least we has made some sweets to celebrate this ocassion. This year, none. Didnt even go to the local desi grocery store to get something readymade.Of course I made the India call to wish everyone, but thats as far as I went. I wonder if others are sharing my lack of enthusiasm ? Or is it just me ?

I noticed this even during my India visit, earlier in the year. I had just brushed it off, as my arrogance or maybe a heady feeling of being on cloud 9 after graduating from school, which I thought qualified me as a hero/stud of some sort. Everything seems a little annoying back home. No broadband, no electricity, no continous warm water, roads from hell and all of a sudden you are longing to head back to Miami. (when not in hurricane season of course !!) Not only this I could feel the slight disconnection between me and my relatives. Everyone is suddenly leading their own lives and I have no clue. Of course, in reality all of them are pretty much in touch with each other, celebrating festivals and being together on all possible ocassions. Its only me who is out of the loop and whats worse is that once you get used to it, you dont even seem to mind. But I do end up feeling like a f****** looser make that a capital L